This weekend, Friday to be exact, I hung out with my friends Brittany, Tiffany, and Amanda. We went to see the football game in Newington. We (New Britain High) played again Newington High and of course Newington got their asses handed to them, being defeated 20 - 17. I was kinda disappointed because NB was playing so damn sloppy, we could have owned them big time if our players were actually making an effort. But that’s besides the point…

Brittany and Tiffany’s mom made the usual cookies for the football team. All the boys live to eat those cookies. I have to say, the first time I ate them I amost made myself sick on them. Once I had one I just couldnt stop eating them. LOL We waited for the players after the game at NBHS and gave them out. Boys were sneaking out during their after game meeting just to get the cookies first. It was quite entertaining.  Ha ha. After that I hung out at Tiff’s house for a little while longer and then went home.

Today is my Friend Barbara’s Bday. I think I missed her party yesterday. Im not sure. Today I was going to go to her house and chill with her, but her phone is off again and she isnt on myspace to send her a message. I think Im going to stay home. I didnt have a present for her anyway. :(  Besides I have a lot of things to do today, like finish an essay that I should have done in the summer.

Recently I’ve been feeling really down on myself. I’ve also noticed that I have been eating like a fat pig. Nothing seems to satisfy my hunger anymore. I dont know what to do. I feel so self-concious, it’s rediculous. Every little thing I do, say, or wear is being scrutanized, by me! I just dont feel good about myself. I feel like I cant compete with all these other girls, why boys only call me if they want something, and why im still not anyone’s girl. I think I need to really buckle down and lose some weight. I lost about 12 pounds in the summer, but Its not enough. I dont want to be stick thin, just smaller.

I will be 17 on Decmeber 5th. It’s quie a while away, I know.  My 16th year of life has been one of the craziest so far. The summer of o8 is def one for the record books. I have experimented with sooo many things, done things I thought I never would do, but I enjoyed every single minute of it. I wouldn’t change anything that has happened so far. Each thing I do has some kind of lesson to be learned behind it. School is coming up and I have yet to even attemp to do my community service nor my summmer assignments. Im more worried about the communtity service though. I still dont have a job. I really need one though. I wanna start saving for college and for an epiphany trip my friends and I are planning.  I also want to change my personal style. Not my personality becuase, with all honesty, that is my best feature. I want the physical to finally connect with the mental. I want to revamp Nerdtorious, probably get a new domain name. I think I’ve outgrown this one a little. IDK. I’ll get back to you on that.

OMG. I am sitting here listening to this song called “Tonight Tonight” by Nice Guys Finish First. I think it is freaking awesome. I just love the beat, its making me spas out. LOL I found the band randomly by going to my friend’s myspace for no reason. It’s kinda like tencho, electronic, pop - but all combined in a good way.

Well after listening to that song about 30 times I had the crazy idea to start making my own music. I’ve tried before and failed miserably. I think I need to just step back and put down the guitar (still havent learned how to play it) before somebody’s ears start bleeding.

Well I am trying to update my websites more and as some of you can tell I have created a design section. I just have to add an order form and the design section will be complete.

Umm, what else can I rave about? MOVIES!! All week (which was my winter vacation) I have been watching movies. I found out that I am addicted to gay movies. Movies that have gay characters in them, in which they try to find love or try to come to terms with the fact that they are gay. Anyway, I have to say that my favorite gay movie is “Boy Culture“, closely followed by “Another Gay Movie“. Yesterday I found out that there will be a sequel to Another Gay Movie and I almost had a panic attack. I cant wait till it comes out!

That’s all for now. I have to work on my projects that are due Monday.

So yea. I havent blogged in a while. Mostly because I have been too lazy to login to wordpress and start typing.

I have a life now! I spent the weekend practically living at my friend Barbara’s house. On Friday I went there to celebrate her birthday. On that day there were SOOO many people celebrating their birthdays.

… Anyway they kept on trying to make me dance and whatever. We had cake and ate Spanish food. I had this thing called “Octopus Salad”. I was afraid to eat it since I didnt know what octopus tasted like, but it was good. Surprisingly octopus kinda tastes like shrimp and lobster mixed together.

Saturday I spent the whole day with Barbara and her friend Jon.  First i went to her house and Jon showed me some pics of him and his friends like in Amsterdam and France. Then we went outside and talked some more about music and other things.  Later we went to the grocery store and that was fun. Around 10:50 we went to pick up her sister at TJMaxx and we all talked about Blue’s Clues, The Teletubies, SpongeBob SuarePants, and other kiddie TV shows. LOL Also we played a game with the tennis ball.

I love hanging with Barbara and her friends and mom. ha ha good times

Today I was dismissed from school early so that I could go to the eye doctor. It took forever for me to be seen because the line at the office was so long. It was insane. Anyway the actual examination took about 5 minutes. Doctor Pavano said that I could order my contacts every 3 months.  Then I told my mom I needed a fill. She then brought me to the nail place and I got them filled and did a new design instead of the French that I had last time. I think they are awsome!