This weekend, Friday to be exact, I hung out with my friends Brittany, Tiffany, and Amanda. We went to see the football game in Newington. We (New Britain High) played again Newington High and of course Newington got their asses handed to them, being defeated 20 - 17. I was kinda disappointed because NB was playing so damn sloppy, we could have owned them big time if our players were actually making an effort. But that’s besides the point…

Brittany and Tiffany’s mom made the usual cookies for the football team. All the boys live to eat those cookies. I have to say, the first time I ate them I amost made myself sick on them. Once I had one I just couldnt stop eating them. LOL We waited for the players after the game at NBHS and gave them out. Boys were sneaking out during their after game meeting just to get the cookies first. It was quite entertaining.  Ha ha. After that I hung out at Tiff’s house for a little while longer and then went home.

Today is my Friend Barbara’s Bday. I think I missed her party yesterday. Im not sure. Today I was going to go to her house and chill with her, but her phone is off again and she isnt on myspace to send her a message. I think Im going to stay home. I didnt have a present for her anyway. :(  Besides I have a lot of things to do today, like finish an essay that I should have done in the summer.

Recently I’ve been feeling really down on myself. I’ve also noticed that I have been eating like a fat pig. Nothing seems to satisfy my hunger anymore. I dont know what to do. I feel so self-concious, it’s rediculous. Every little thing I do, say, or wear is being scrutanized, by me! I just dont feel good about myself. I feel like I cant compete with all these other girls, why boys only call me if they want something, and why im still not anyone’s girl. I think I need to really buckle down and lose some weight. I lost about 12 pounds in the summer, but Its not enough. I dont want to be stick thin, just smaller.

Hey what’s up?!!! I was listening to Jowell Y Randy Feat. Hector El Father - Hola Bebe so I decided to use that line in the song for the title. LOL I never use to like regaeton, but now I kinda do. Only select artists though. ha ha.

Well on September second I started school. It was the best “first day of school” in a long itme. I gound out that I had sooo many classes with my close friends. I also have this teacher named Mr. Pugliares, who is a real free spirit and wants us to think outside of the box. I really like him, he’s one of those laid back teachers that trick you into learning, … somehow. LOL

After school (still the first day) i went to my friend’s house and we hung out for a while, played Sims. Later that night I saw #3 (if you dont understand my number system I will explain in another post). I was actually surprised because i thought the "summer" would be over.

Anyway, on the second day (Wednesday) I was sooo fucking pissed. I found out that Mr. Litke sent a message to my guidance counselor telling her to change my math class. She did and she ended up messing up my schedule !!!!!  Instead of having Algebra 3, I have this really low level Algebra 1 class. I felt like I was back in kindergarten!! I decided to keep it though, it’s an easy “A”. ha ha.  She ended up taking out Business math too. I was fighting for two days to put business math back in my schedule and come to find out (on Friday) I dont even need that class! But other than that school has been pretty fucking awesome. Just have to keep up with my work. I tend to get lazy and put everything off til the last minute.

My friend and I are planning on designing a clothing line. Im not sure what it will be though. But we are supposed to hook up soon to start sketching and designing. We’ll see how that goes. lol

Im trying to get money. There are soooo many things that I need and want to buy, but I dont have money to do so. I think Im going to start designing again. I think my break has been long enough. ha ha. I also need to hurry up and get my permit, so I can get my licence. Im like one of the only people I know, who still doesnt drive. It sucks, bad.

I will be 17 on Decmeber 5th. It’s quie a while away, I know.  My 16th year of life has been one of the craziest so far. The summer of o8 is def one for the record books. I have experimented with sooo many things, done things I thought I never would do, but I enjoyed every single minute of it. I wouldn’t change anything that has happened so far. Each thing I do has some kind of lesson to be learned behind it. School is coming up and I have yet to even attemp to do my community service nor my summmer assignments. Im more worried about the communtity service though. I still dont have a job. I really need one though. I wanna start saving for college and for an epiphany trip my friends and I are planning.  I also want to change my personal style. Not my personality becuase, with all honesty, that is my best feature. I want the physical to finally connect with the mental. I want to revamp Nerdtorious, probably get a new domain name. I think I’ve outgrown this one a little. IDK. I’ll get back to you on that.

Hrmm… My class is going to a field trip to the Boston Museum of Fine Arts. The cost is $48, not much, but why bother paying when you can go for free, right? So we are selling candy. It has become a competition between me and my friends to see who can sell the most boxes. Right now my friend Sean has sold a whole box more than me (he has sold 3 and im almost done selling 2).  I was going to try to sell a 3rd box, but I dont really need to so I wont.

Also, AP (Advanced Placement) Exams are coming up, next Wednesday to be exact. I have been half-ass studying. LOL I really need to practice some multiple choice, im just starting to develop my own style (writing, like essays and this of that nature).  There has been this thing going around Myspace and Facebook telling everyone who is taking an AP Exam (one that includes writing) to write “THIS IS SPARTA!” on their paper and cross it out with a single line like that. It doesnt count towards you score, since it is crossed out, so it doesn’t hinder your score, but it will make the graders either laugh or think “WTF?!”.

Ohh, BTW a passing grade on an AP test can possibly count as a credit in college (depending on which college you attend), that’s why it is important.

So I’m kind of a sexual person. I don’t go around giving blowjobs or whatever, but I am sensual and like some kinky stuff. Today I asked my friend Danny if he ever thought of being a stripper. LOL I was thinking about it all weekend and just had to ask someone. He said no. While in homeroom I was doing a split and my other friend came in and saw me. He had this look on his face like, “WTF is going on?!???”. My friend Danny and I started laughing.

Me and him need to hang out…