This weekend, Friday to be exact, I hung out with my friends Brittany, Tiffany, and Amanda. We went to see the football game in Newington. We (New Britain High) played again Newington High and of course Newington got their asses handed to them, being defeated 20 - 17. I was kinda disappointed because NB was playing so damn sloppy, we could have owned them big time if our players were actually making an effort. But that’s besides the point…

Brittany and Tiffany’s mom made the usual cookies for the football team. All the boys live to eat those cookies. I have to say, the first time I ate them I amost made myself sick on them. Once I had one I just couldnt stop eating them. LOL We waited for the players after the game at NBHS and gave them out. Boys were sneaking out during their after game meeting just to get the cookies first. It was quite entertaining.  Ha ha. After that I hung out at Tiff’s house for a little while longer and then went home.

Today is my Friend Barbara’s Bday. I think I missed her party yesterday. Im not sure. Today I was going to go to her house and chill with her, but her phone is off again and she isnt on myspace to send her a message. I think Im going to stay home. I didnt have a present for her anyway. :(  Besides I have a lot of things to do today, like finish an essay that I should have done in the summer.

Recently I’ve been feeling really down on myself. I’ve also noticed that I have been eating like a fat pig. Nothing seems to satisfy my hunger anymore. I dont know what to do. I feel so self-concious, it’s rediculous. Every little thing I do, say, or wear is being scrutanized, by me! I just dont feel good about myself. I feel like I cant compete with all these other girls, why boys only call me if they want something, and why im still not anyone’s girl. I think I need to really buckle down and lose some weight. I lost about 12 pounds in the summer, but Its not enough. I dont want to be stick thin, just smaller.

and I am now 16.

So yea. I havent blogged in a while. Mostly because I have been too lazy to login to wordpress and start typing.

I have a life now! I spent the weekend practically living at my friend Barbara’s house. On Friday I went there to celebrate her birthday. On that day there were SOOO many people celebrating their birthdays.

… Anyway they kept on trying to make me dance and whatever. We had cake and ate Spanish food. I had this thing called “Octopus Salad”. I was afraid to eat it since I didnt know what octopus tasted like, but it was good. Surprisingly octopus kinda tastes like shrimp and lobster mixed together.

Saturday I spent the whole day with Barbara and her friend Jon.  First i went to her house and Jon showed me some pics of him and his friends like in Amsterdam and France. Then we went outside and talked some more about music and other things.  Later we went to the grocery store and that was fun. Around 10:50 we went to pick up her sister at TJMaxx and we all talked about Blue’s Clues, The Teletubies, SpongeBob SuarePants, and other kiddie TV shows. LOL Also we played a game with the tennis ball.

I love hanging with Barbara and her friends and mom. ha ha good times

Today I was dismissed from school early so that I could go to the eye doctor. It took forever for me to be seen because the line at the office was so long. It was insane. Anyway the actual examination took about 5 minutes. Doctor Pavano said that I could order my contacts every 3 months.  Then I told my mom I needed a fill. She then brought me to the nail place and I got them filled and did a new design instead of the French that I had last time. I think they are awsome!

Well after reading th title you are probably thinking “Well, who doesnt?”, But right now i really really need some money.

It all started when I decided to temporarily close down my design site. I was just too stressed and I wasnt inspired to design anything. That was basically my only source of income. I would make almost $200 / month or more off of designing.

Then, at my hosting site, lots of hostees just stopped paying their hosting bills. (Hrmmm … maybe it had to do with the multiple DoS Attacks..) I now i only have 1 paying hostee!

The reason why i need money is for new contacts. The ones i had were trials ones (trials that cost $90, WTF!). Today i was watching Spiderman 3. I started crying at the end of the movie when Harry was dying (im so lame). Then i wiped my eye and my contact came out. I finally found it on the floor all shrivled up and folded. I tried to unfold it, but it ended up ripping. I told my mom what happened and she said that “if i wanted contacts, then I would have to buy them“. They are like $250 / year. Her reasoning (which is pretty good, even though i hate to admit it) is the fact that i ripped the contact lens after only having it for about 6 days, but she doesnt seem to realize that it was purely and accident.

But whatever… I guess im not getting contacts any time soon.