This weekend, Friday to be exact, I hung out with my friends Brittany, Tiffany, and Amanda. We went to see the football game in Newington. We (New Britain High) played again Newington High and of course Newington got their asses handed to them, being defeated 20 - 17. I was kinda disappointed because NB was playing so damn sloppy, we could have owned them big time if our players were actually making an effort. But that’s besides the point…

Brittany and Tiffany’s mom made the usual cookies for the football team. All the boys live to eat those cookies. I have to say, the first time I ate them I amost made myself sick on them. Once I had one I just couldnt stop eating them. LOL We waited for the players after the game at NBHS and gave them out. Boys were sneaking out during their after game meeting just to get the cookies first. It was quite entertaining.  Ha ha. After that I hung out at Tiff’s house for a little while longer and then went home.

Today is my Friend Barbara’s Bday. I think I missed her party yesterday. Im not sure. Today I was going to go to her house and chill with her, but her phone is off again and she isnt on myspace to send her a message. I think Im going to stay home. I didnt have a present for her anyway. :(  Besides I have a lot of things to do today, like finish an essay that I should have done in the summer.

Recently I’ve been feeling really down on myself. I’ve also noticed that I have been eating like a fat pig. Nothing seems to satisfy my hunger anymore. I dont know what to do. I feel so self-concious, it’s rediculous. Every little thing I do, say, or wear is being scrutanized, by me! I just dont feel good about myself. I feel like I cant compete with all these other girls, why boys only call me if they want something, and why im still not anyone’s girl. I think I need to really buckle down and lose some weight. I lost about 12 pounds in the summer, but Its not enough. I dont want to be stick thin, just smaller.

Well i did my hair on Monday. I did it sort of like a frohawk style. If you dont know what a frohawk is just click on the word frohawk. LOL Well i kinda did that and made it something different. I also (like i said in my last post) got contacts. I also am going to finish my nails on saturday.

I am trying to be a differnet person than i have been before in my life. Not only visually, but personality wise too. I have always been that unconfident person who would just never do things because of what she though people would say about her. In a way I still hold on to a part of that person, but hopefully when I go back to school (in 6 days) I will just completely shed that part of my personality.

I am going to be entering my junior year and I cant wait for school to start. I think, no, THIS WILL BE the best year of my academic career (besides graduation and college lol).

Hrmmm…. I just realized how much of a cam whore i am LMAO. I love to take pictures of my self and most of the time im doing these stupid poses.

I need to make a new layout… but i have no inspiration to do so. I like to change my layouts once a month and AUgust is ending soon so i need o hurry up and do it. LOL

I also need a new layout for my myspace. **IF you have a myspace ad me ** I think I am just going to do a simple layout. Nothing shnazzy like my other layouts. Maybe i will do that now and flood my myspace with new pics of me - posing of course. LMAO

Well bye. I just made a flickr account and i need to add photos to it.

EDIT:// I think I am going to clean up my blog. //:EDIT

Today was a bad day. I washed my hair and my hair didn’t turn out the way i planned. Then while i was trying to style my hair it wasn’t doing what i wanted it to do. I was so frustrated. Then when I was trying at least attempt to continue styling my hair the mirror fell over and broke. I was so far behind trying to do my hair that i couldn’t do my nails. I was so upset i decided to just go to bed and sleep. My mom woke me up a few hours later when she got home and told me to put on some clothes. SO i arrive at the eye doctors and there is a sea of people there. That’s the busy i have ever seen that place. My mom tells me to go get my contact lenses so i do that, schedule a follow up appointment, and leave. Since there was so many people there no one could tell me how to put on or take off my contacts.

When i got home i opened the contact box and looked at all the stuff and the lenses. I washed my hands and opened up the right contact lens case. I dropped it like 3 times LOL. I had to wash it with the lens cleaner. Every time i would try to get the contact on my eye i would either drop it or blink. To cut a long story short it took about 25 minutes to put both of my contacts in.

Around 10:20 pm I decided to take out my contacts. This was truly a feat. LOL Its easy to put the contacts in, but its really hard to take them out. I was trying to “pinch” them out, but it wasn’t working. The contacts were too wet. Then I tried to slide it out the side, but I was afraid that the contacts would get “lost in my eye” and the contacts would automatically re-align in my eyes. Finally about 20 - 3o minutes later, after countless break downs i got the right one out. About 3 minutes after that i got the left one out.

My god, contacts are harder than I expected them to be.

Yesterday I painted my nails a vibrant red. I also realized that I really am an internet addict. The first thiing I do every morning is turn on the computer. Somtimimes i try to see how long I can go wtihout turning it on. It is never more than 2 hours though LMAO!!

Well today I started out getting dressed. I put on my new fruity color push-up bra. LOL. I bought it on saturday. I is got pink, lime green, and mint green. When I picked it up and I was about to pay for it my mom looked at me like I was crazy. I told her not to worry about it because no one was going to see it underneath a shirt. When I got home i put it one. It was one of the weirdest thing to try and put on. It felt weird because i never had a bra like that, but anyway …

I digress. I ate my oatmeal, drank some apple juice, sprayed on some perfume, and went to school. During first period I was sent down to Mr. Mercado’s office. He is kinda like the dean of punishments. It was the first time I had been there. He gave me a 2-hour detention for skipping math classs. Aparently Mr. Litke, my math teacher, wrote me up. I think that Amy, this girl I talk to everyday, and possibly Sean inadvertantly snitched me out. I am debating on whether or not to go to the two hour.

Today I was busy showing my new t-shirt. It’s grey and it has four tootsie rolls on it. it says, “Tootsie Roll. Wanna lick?”. My friend Sean said i was a slut for wearing that shirt. lol

In gym my friend Jorge, Sandy, and I didnt play gym. we sat on the side lines talking and whatnot. There were only 2 chairs to sit on, since we could no longer sit on the bleachers without extending them all the way. So here we are fightning over a chair. Jorge thinks it’s cute to go and pull down his pants and so us his ass. If it wasnt enough he decided to do it again, but instead rub his ass on my arm!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WTF!!!! OMG. I couldnt believe he did that. He told me not to tell anyone, yet he goes and tells everyone before i could!!!

… Boldness.

P.S. - To all the people who commented me i will try to comment you all A.S.A.P. I have ajusted to daylights saving yet and i need to sleep yo. lol